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“I’ll see ya’ll in the morning. Don’t forget I’mÂ
* bringing doughnuts!” I call out as I walk out theÂ
back door.Â
I walk to my car, wrapping my jacket closerÂ
to me. Even though it’s April and we should beÂ
getting warmer around here, the evening can stillÂ
get chilly. I get in and turn the heat on, hopingÂ
that the car will warm up in the ten minutes itÂ
takes me to get home. Living close to work hasÂ
some advantages, but heating up and coolingÂ
down a vehicle isn’t one of them.Â
I think about the finishing touches I have toÂ
make on dinner and hope that Kyle is happy withÂ
the chicken and dumplings I’ve made. He’s been so grumpy lately that I’m wondering if there’s anything I could do that would make him happy. He’s saying it’s all related to this case he’s takenÂ
on, but I don’t know if I believe that. Kyle hasÂ
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always been one to hold things in since we wereÂ
kids. I thought that over time he would get betterÂ
about letting me share his burdens, but no suchÂ
luck. He was as closed off as he’d ever been,Â
and maybe even worse.Â
People in town liked to think that we wereÂ
the perfect couple. We met as children and grewÂ
up together as friends. Then once we were older,Â
we became a couple. Kyle was with me when IÂ
lost both my parents during our senior year ofÂ
high school. He stood with me while I tried to getÂ
myself together after such a tragic loss. TheÂ
people in town thought that made him a saintÂ
and made his ego grow all that much more.Â
I love Kyle. That’s something I don’t doubt,Â
but I don’t know that he loves me in the sameÂ
way. I’m always the one that works at keeping that spark alive in our relationship. I make sure to do everything possible to make his life easierÂ
and happy. The only thing that I lack is givingÂ
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him children. We tried for years and when weÂ
were unsuccessful; I suggested seeing a doctor.Â
Kyle wouldn’t hear of it.Â
“The whole town will know what a failure youÂ
are in that area! I won’t have you embarrass meÂ
like that!” He had yelled at the mere suggestion.Â
I had never felt lower in my life. Kyle hadÂ
always told me it was my job to keep the houseÂ
in order and to give him children. He said as longÂ
as I would do that?Â
we would be perfect. I knewÂ
very well the community would watch and waitÂ
for the new Pressley to make their debut. ItÂ
seemed like such a simple task, but I wasn’t ableÂ
to do it. Over the last few months, Kyle hadÂ
gotten angry at the fact that I wasn’t gettingÂ
pregnant. He swore it was my fault and that IÂ
needed to get my act together.Â
The problem of children seemed to be theÂ
only thing that was ever there. We never foughtÂ
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except for that. I never felt like he was steppingÂ
out on me or hiding things. All in all, I thought weÂ
had a great marriage. I just needed to figure outÂ
how to give him children. Easier said than done,Â
right?Â
I pull up to the house and see the garageÂ
door is open and Kyle’s car is already in there.Â
He’s home early. Kyle rarely gets home untilÂ
around seven at night. Hope floods my systemÂ
as I think that maybe he’s home to spend someÂ
time with me. I haven’t seen him much over theÂ
last few months and I miss him. I haven’t saidÂ
anything because I knew he was under a lot of pressure with this case. Tonight, I will work hardÂ
to give him what he wants most, a child.Â
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