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I grab the envelope out of my bag and lookÂ
at it. It was Kyle’s handwriting. Parts of meÂ
wanted to never open the stupid thing, like itÂ
would give him some kind of one up on me if IÂ
did. Other parts just wanted to tear the damnÂ
thing open and spit on his last words to me. IÂ
think back to that last morning we were togetherÂ
and nothing seemed out of place. Kyle got upÂ
stairs once he wasÂ
after I did and cameÂ
ready to find the breakfast I made for him.Â
I did that every morning. I would get up atÂ
least an hour and a half before him, so that heÂ
would have a hot breakfast waiting for him onceÂ
he was done. It was one of the things that KyleÂ
had said that a loving wife should do for herÂ
husband. And since Mama had always done that for Daddy I never thought anything different.Â
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We sat there and ate breakfast, makingÂ
small talk about our plans for the day. Kyle saidÂ
he had meetings about his current case and mayÂ
be later than normal. When he stood to leave, heÂ
gave me a kiss on the forehead and left like heÂ
normally did. Kyle wasn’t one to say I love you aÂ
lot so, I was the one to always say it.Â
“I love you. Be safe!” I called out after him,Â
and he raised his hand to let me know he heardÂ
- me.Â
Nothing was out of the ordinary. Kyle gaveÂ
no signals that he was unhappy that day or thatÂ
it would be the last time I saw him. Then again, IÂ
also didn’t know he had been cheating on me forÂ
the last ten years. I must look like the town idiot.Â
I have no doubts now that everyone knows aboutÂ
- it. Hell, in this town, they all probably used it forÂ
their entertainment. Let’s see how stupid TabithaÂ
really is today!Â
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I might as well open it and get it over with. IÂ
know that I will eventually read it and I thinkÂ
ripping the Band–Aid off and getting it over withÂ
will be for the best. I open the envelope and pullÂ
out the paper inside. Before I can even startÂ
reading it, I’m already hurt. He couldn’t evenÂ
hand–write the letter. He typed it out. Did heÂ
really think so little of me he couldn’t beÂ
bothered to write my dear John letter??Â
Tabitha,Â
I won’t drag this out, as I know you areÂ
probably deeply hurt by my leaving you. You mayÂ
or may not already know that I have divorced youÂ
and married someone else. I know that I did thisÂ
without your consent but, let’s be honest youÂ
would have never agreed to it. Heather and IÂ
have been happy these past ten years, and IÂ
know that you wouldn’t ever understand ourÂ
relationship. You had become accustomed to theÂ
lifestyle that I provided for you and would haveÂ
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fought to keep it.Â
I stopped reading in shock. He thought that IÂ
was with him for his lifestyle? For the first timeÂ
since his death, I cursed the man I was marriedÂ
- to. Hate begins to bloom in my heart for him. TheÂ
man knew nothing about me if he thought thatÂ
was the reason I was with him. Had Kyle reallyÂ
felt that I only wanted what he could provide forÂ
me? Had he never read the countless letters IÂ
would write to him, telling him how much I lovedÂ
him?Â
Being the good man that I am, I never had itÂ
in my heart to tell you I didn’t love you. You wereÂ
always around like a lost puppy and I didn’t haveÂ
it in me to kick you away. For years I was teasedÂ
about you clinging to me, but I thought that inÂ
your own way you were cute. It wasn’t untilÂ
Heather that I learned what love is. I neverÂ
should have married you, but you were soÂ
insistent that I couldn’t tell you no. I honestlyÂ
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don’t think you would have even listened if I had.Â
But now that I have my son to take care of, I canÂ
no longer watch after you. They are my family and I hope you can respect my wishes. You willÂ
need to leave the house immediately and takeÂ
only your personal possessions with you.Â
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