Chapter 152
“Shit. T. I’ll be better. I’ll do better. I promise. That’s the point, right? To practice so we can be good by the time we get to the Academy?”
“Yeah,” she says, not sounding convinced. “I need to talk to my mom. I need to see if there’s a better approach for us to take.”
“I’ll do whatever it takes to make you feel good, Tiana. I just …” I run my fingers through my hair. “I’m new at this too. It’s easier for me to get off than it is for you, obviously. Don’t give up on me. I want to make it right. I just… I don’t know any more than you do. You at least have a family that went to the Academy and has some knowledge of how to make it good for your partner. I don’t even have that.”
“I know. I’m not trying to make you feel bad, Shane. I’m not. I’m just … maybe it would be better if one of us had some experience.”
“What are you saying?” I growl.
“Nothing. I’m not saying anything. I just… I just need to talk to my mom.”
“We’re still together, right?” I ask, getting a sick feeling in my stomach.
“Yes. We’re still together,” she says, lifting up on her toes and kissing me.
I begin kissing her in the way she likes, then stop, pulling back. “Do you like the way I kiss you?”
“Yeah. Yeah, I do.”
“Well, at least I’m doing something right,” I say, feeling a bit better.
“Maybe you should…
maybe talk to Christian. See what he says. I’ll talk to my mom, you talk
to Christian and when I’m back, we’ll see how it goes.”
“And if it doesn’t go well?” I ask, feeling like my life is sliding out of control again.
“Let’s just see how it goes.
”
She wraps her arms around my neck. I kiss her, but I’m so distracted by her words that I end
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the kiss first. It’s the first time that I’ve done that.
“Drive safe. Let one of us know that you’re home safe, T.”
She looks at me a long moment. “I will.”
She gets in the car and waves before driving ofl. I feel sick to my stomach.
What if I screwed everything up? What if she doesn’t come back?
Sebastiana
The entire way home, I struggled to breathe. What have I done? Did I push for things to happen before I was ready? Did I rush into things without thinking them through?
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but Okay, the answer to the last question is definitely yes. That’s how I do everything, but this is my body. I gave it to someone who has no idea what he’s doing. Granted, neither do I, but… was it a mistake?
I barely have the car parked at my cousin Raif’s pack, before I’m stumbling out of the car.
When I walk inside, my cousin is there. The smile falls off his face.
“Sebastiana, what’s wrong?”
“I need my mother. Where is
my mother?”
His eyes go unfocused. My parents and I accept whichever cousin we’re staying with during the time we’re there, so we have a pack link. I never thought much of it, but I’m thankful we have it now.
“Sebastiana?” my mother says, striding out.
“Mom! I need to talk to you. Please! I need to talk to right now!” I say, practically throwing myself into her arms.
Her arms come around me. “Of course, sweetheart. Calm down. Let’s go talk,” she got her Raif, thank you.”
says.
“I’ve
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