Chapter 180
“No, I … I just didn’t think that you were ready.”
“Oh, I’m more than ready. But now, I think that you are ready too. I feel like you’ve gotten used to me touching you. You’re used to the feel of my mouth on you and my fingers inside you. Would you agree with that?” I ask.
“Yes,” she says, swallowing hard.
“Hey,” I say, tilting her head to look at me and setting her wine aside. “I wanted tonight to be special. I want it to be a night that you remember and look back on fondly. That’s why you chose me right? So that this night would be memorable for you, in a good way?” I ask her.
She nods.
“Good. I want to do things differently tonight,” I say, stroking my fingers over her cheeks. “Differently how?” she asks.
“Not so precise and not so structured. I’m not going to let you rush things, but if you want to touch me or kiss me, that will be allowed. I want this to be everything you’ve ever hoped your first time would be like.”
I lean forward and kiss her, softly at first, then deepening the kiss. I kiss her until she begins whimpering, then I pull back.
“It’s going to hurt. There’s no way around that,” I say, untying her robe and pushing it off her shoulders, letting it fall to the floor. “But I’m going to do everything I can to make sure that it hurts as little as possible for as short a time as possible.”
She looks at my chest. “I can touch you?”
“Yes,” I say, growling when she slides her hands over my chest and up to my shoulders.
She sighs as she watches her hands glide over my body. “I’ve wanted to touch you for a very long time,” she breathes.
“I’ve wanted you to touch me for a very long time,” I say, my voice deep with my desire for her.
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“Then why wouldn’t you let me touch you?” she asks, looking up at me with those big, beautiful green eyes.
“Because you were trying to make me lose control and give you what you wanted before you were ready for it.”
“And now, that’s okay?” she asks.
“Now, I want this to be more than me showing you what it’s like to have sex. Now, I want to make love to you, Enya. I want to show you what it feels like to have a man worship you for the woman you are.”
I slide my hands up her sides, running my thumbs over the swell of her breasts and her nipples.
She gasps as her nipples harden. I watch her as I gently tease them with my thumbs and fingers.
“You’re so beautiful, Enya.”
“I think you’re pretty magnificent too, Christian,” she says.
I lean down, taking her mouth again as I pull her to me. Her naked body presses against me and she pushes her hips against mine, making me groan.
I begin kissing my way down her neck as her hands slide down my sides.
“Can I push these off,” she breathes, her hands sliding inside my boxers.
“Yes, but I don’t want you to be afraid. We will take our time, Enya,” I say.
She nods as I suck on her neck, marking her in the only way that I can.
I feel her trying to push my boxers down my hips, but I’m already aroused and they’re getting caught. I pull off her neck, watching her as I pull the front of the boxers over my erection. Her eyes go wide, and she looks up at me.
