Chapter 141
I once again woke up to the smell of antiseptics and the cold White Room.
“Not again,” I whispered. My mouth felt dry and tasted bad. I’m getting way too familiar with this
place.
But this time, something felt wrong. Usually every time I wake up very much exhausted by my powers I feel a headache and sometimes dizzy.
But into there was a cold, heavy feeling grew in my stomach. It wasn’t physical or tangible pain. This felt deeper, like a part of me was gone. My heart started beating very fast. I tried to think about what happened the last time I was conscious but I couldn’t come up with anything.
I think I blocked out everything the moment Astor left. I was just too heartbroken to even process anything around me.
I felt someone move next to my bed. I jumped. My eyes quickly moved to the chair and it was
Astor.
His face was pale and his eyes were red and tired. He looked worried. Very, very worried.
But that wasn’t the most surprising thing to me because the last time I saw him, he hated me. He looked at me like I was monster, like he wanted me gone. Why was he here? And why did he look
so upset?
Before I could speak, before I could ask him anything, a strong feeling shook me. It wasn’t a body shake; it was deep inside me, like a loud cry.
It felt like a huge wave of emotional pan hitting me. The first thing I felt was a sharp, raw grief that made it hard to breathe.
A deep, strong sadness that it crushed me. It was the kind that split my soul in two, leaving me gasping and broken. My Wolf cried out inside me, a quiet scream of endless pain.
At first, I didn’t get it. Why was my Wolf hurting so much? Why was I hurting so much? Then, slowly, with much pain, I started to understand. The feeling of something missing. The empty space in my stomach. The heavy, bad feeling. The way my Wolf was grieving. No. No, it couldn’t be true.
A deep cry tore from my throat. “NO!” My hand shot to my stomach and I grabbed the spot where my baby should have been. I should have felt a tiny heart beating. But there was nothing. Just a scary, empty space.
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I shook my head, tears making everything blurry. “No, no, no…” I must be dreaming because this has to be a mistake and my baby is okay.
Astor was next to me fast. His hand reached out to hold me and his face showed deep sadness as well. “Faith, please, be calm-”
“Don’t touch me!” I screamed and pushed his hand away, stronger than I thought I could. My voice was a broken whisper, hardly loud enough to hear. “Where is my baby? Astor, where is my baby?”
Just then, the door opened quietly. The doctor came in and e looked serious and sad but my eyes fixed on him. I was desperate for answers. And most importantly someone to tell me that this was
not true.
“Doctor,” I choked out, tears running down my face. “Please, tell me. Why… why can’t I feel my baby’s heart? Why can’t I feel my baby?”
The doctor came closer. He looked at me with pity and he took a deep, heavy breath. His words were soft, but they broke me completely. “Luna Faith, I am so, so sorry. I have bad news. Your baby
your baby is gone.”
The world spun around me. I couldn’t breathe. “No,” I whimpered, a broken sound. “No, that can’t be true. My baby… my baby is strong. My baby couldn’t be gone. Bring my baby back to me
Bring my back back. I just want my baby”
I broke down. The sadness, the pain, the empty feeling, it all covered me. I curled up, crying hard, gasping for air, shaking all over. Every part of me screamed in pain. My baby. My child. Gone.
Astor tried to reach for me again. His hand gently touched my arm. “Faith, I’m so sorry. I truly am-” But this time, I looked at him. The sadness in my eyes turned into something else. Something cold and sharp. Anger. Hate. Deep disappointment and hate that made me feel sick.
“You did this,” I spat out. My voice shaking with anger. I pulled my arm away, like his touch burned me because it truly did burn a part of my soul. “You can’t touch me! You… you killed our baby!”
My words rushed out, fast and angry, powered by the terrible pain in my chest. “It’s gone because of you! Because of you and your mother! What happened to your father was a mistake! I didn’t mean to, I promise I didn’t mean to!” My voice broke. “But that didn’t mean you had to take away my baby! Before he was even born! Before I could see if it was a girl or a boy! Before I could hold him or her.”
He didn’t touch me but his mother did and that too in front of him and he said nothing. He didn’t defend me because he agreed with her deep down.
Now we get has to live with the front that he killed his own child and I will make sure that he
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remembers every single day until the day that he dies because that baby was a part of me, a part of me that I will never get back.
Tears poured down my face, mixing with snot. It was a truly ugly cry. “I will never, ever forgive you for this, Astor. Never.”
I should have never come back and maybe we’re poor baby wouldn’t have had to suffer as much as he did before he couldn’t take it anymore.
Astor has always been the reason for my unhappiness and everything that has gone bad in my life.
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#vote# please read Snowbound With The Hockey Star
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