Wind Carved Names Into Silence by Zex Hollow 58

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Chapter 58

Bonnie

I wasn’t lying when I told Nicky that I knew that he needed to go and run, I could feel how tense he and his wolf were and I knew neither of them would want to lose their temper in front of me or Lexi but that wasn’t the only reason I convinced him to go. The truth is I needed some time on my own to work through everything.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that he told me everything that he did and while it does explain a lot of things, it does still leave me with some questions but they’re questions that I don’t think he’ll be able to answer, not really or maybe he won’t want to, I’m not sure, so for me to try and figure them out for myself I needed him gone because when he’s around it’s hard to breath, never mind think.

Take away the asshole side that he carries around or at least the asshole side that he can appear to have and you’ve got everything I could have ever wanted in a mate. He’s tall, strong, and incredibly handsome. He clearly loves his family, pack and of course, his daughter, and I don’t doubt that he would do anything for any one of them.

He’s also an Alpha which if we’re being honest, to be mated to an Alpha is what most She–wolves dream about but for me, it’s not everything I could want. Him being an Alpha makes no difference to me, he could be an Omega for all I care. His rank does nothing for me and in all honesty, the thought of being a Luna scares the shit out of me.

I know he’s claiming to have seen past his wish to not take his mate but what if he changes his mind again? What if he claims me only to reject me later on? What if he thinks he wants me but then he decides he was wrong and sends me on my way? I’ve been through a lot of heartache in my lifetime but to live through that… Yeah, I’m not sure if I could survive that, not sure if I would want to. Which brings me to my other reason for wanting to be left alone.

I know he told me a lot but I also know that he hasn’t told me everything. He’s still holding back on the true reason why he doesn’t want a mate and unless he’s willing to tell me what it is then there’s no hope for us. As much as it breaks my heart, I will walk away. If he can’t be honest with me, his mate about a question that involves me then how am I supposed to ever trust him? The moment I asked him about why he didn’t want a mate I knew he wasn’t going to tell me the truth by the way his eyes shifted and his whole body instantly

tensed up.

There’s no way what he said is the main reason, it just doesn’t make sense. I’m not saying that it doesn’t have something to do with his reason but there’s no way that it’s the main reason. I can understand his anger towards Lottie’s mom at what she did when she abandoned her and even when she showed up wanting money for her but if you dig deeper into that you can understand a little of why

she did what she did.

I’m not saying that what she did is ok but she was a scared teenager forced to have a baby without consent. So maybe she did struggle and didn’t want to raise her daughter but she must have been in such an awful place. I know I couldn’t ever imagine going through what she did.

While his anger is somewhat justified I still feel like he’s putting too much blame on her for all that happened and while some of it is her fault, at the same time things happened beyond her control and she couldn’t handle it and I can’t really blame her for that. Who knows how we would react if we found ourselves in the same position? Nicky was lucky to have the family that he does and who were there for him when he found out he had Lottie but not everyone is that lucky.