I stop walking pulling Nick to a sharp stop as I try to control my breathing but it’s no good, I can’t do it. I try taking deep breaths but instead of helping me, it’s making me feel more lightheaded. My brain feels fuzzy and I feel like I’m about to throw up any second. I leanÂ
forward as I try to get some strength but my legs feel like jelly.Â
I hate that this is happening to me, especially after the last few hours that I have spent in heaven but here I am. It has been a long time since this has happened to me and I thought being away from them would stop the attacks but just the sound of their voices hasÂ
enough of an effect on me to have it happening once again.Â
I keep fighting to catch my breath while everyone around me blurs into the background white noise is the only sound that I can hear. I’m not sure how long it takes for me to start coming out of this attack but as I slowly begin to surface, I feel hands on my face and slowly the white noise begins to fade only to be replaced by a deep voice, the voice of my mate. “Bonnie, listen to my voice, baby.”Â
My vision starts to clear up but I’m struggling to breathe, still struggling to talk. I haven’t seen their faces so how can just hearing their voices take me back to that place? “Bonnie, come back to me, sweetheart. That’s it, listen to my voice, come back to me.” My vision finally completely clears and all I can see is my mate standing in front of me, his eyes full of worry meeting mine and that’s enough toÂ
pull me back to the now.Â
“That’s it, beautiful. Concentrate on me.” I shake my head a little as I stand a little taller while the jelly feeling in my legs somewhat lessons. “Im sorry.” I pant as I finish catching my breath. “I don’t know why that happened. It’s been a long time since the last time that itÂ
happened.”Â
He shakes his head as he gently runs his hands up and down my arms. “It’s ok, darling. You don’t have to explain yourself.” Maybe 1 don’t but I still hate that it happened. “I saw them this morning… why didn’t I freak out then.” He shakes his head looking a little lost and I feel bad that he’s having to deal with this. “I don’t know why it happened, darling but it’s ok that it did. You have been through a lot and it’s going to take time to heal from it all, but I’m going to be here with you every step of the way, we all are.Â
I look around me to see Lily and Shane also standing with us both nodding and agreeing with him and it makes my heart feel like it’s ready to burst with how much love I’m feeling right now. I give him a nod as I stand a little taller and mask how I’m really feeling and change the look on my face to match that of someone who doesn’t give a fuck. I’ve spent my entire life with my family enjoying every single second of my misery. Over my dead body will I allow them to see it anymore!Â
“That’s my girl. You don’t show them bastards any fear. You show them the strength that you have because believe me, baby, when I say that you have it in bucket loads. It’s just going to take some time for you to realise it and I’m going to be here every step of the way reminding you.” Goddess, I am falling hard and fast for this man.Â
After we spoke and agreed to give things a try I still had my doubts about us, still had moments of feeling unsure about it I was going to stay here or not hell, it happened this morning, but after everything that has happened today, after how my mate has been treating me, I can’t imagine leaving him any more. He has been so kind, caring and supportive to me when he didn’t have to be and it’s showing me a glimpse of the man that he is and it’s a man that I’m really beginning to like.Â
“Are you ready, baby girl? You don’t have to face them if you don’t want to. You can either go straight into the guard’s room or you can leave altogether and head to our floor.”Â
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“If you don’t want to be here, I’ll come with you,” Lily says making me smile. I know her well and I know that with the strength that she’s picking up off of Shane right now, she wants nothing more than to confront my dad for what he’s done, and rightly so but instead, she’s willing to give that chance up just to be by my side. I don’t know why I’m even shocked, to be honest, she has always been by my side no matter what is going on with her.Â
“Thank you, Lil’s but no, I need to do this. I need to face him… to face them all and I know that you feel the same.” She gives me a smile and nod before shooting me a wink and slowly walking away with Shane but not before she looks back over her shoulder and shouts ‘That’s my girl‘ making me laugh.Â
“Are you sure you want to do this, sweetheart? I nod afraid to speak just in case my words make me appear weaker than I’m suddenly feeling. He takes a moment to study me, maybe even looking for a sign that I’m lying but finally, he seems satisfied as he blesses me with his beaming smile before taking my hand.Â
“Let’s go do this, baby girl. We’re going to show them the woman that you are, not the version that they made you become. You’re going to comfort them and show them that their attempt to fuck you up failed, and then once we’re done, we’re going back to our floor and I’m going to show you just how proud of you I am.” His cheeky smirk makes me smile but also has me nodding more than eager to do just what he said.Â
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All too soon we arrive outside of the cell that my ass wipe family members are currently locked up in, only the moment I see them I don’t feel the fear that I thought I would. Instead, I feel determined and ready to take them on and above all, I feel pissed. After years and years of abuse and bullying, it’s finally time to put them in their place and make them pay for all of their sins.Â
“Who’s going first?” Nick asks looking ready to end them all, and I have a feeling that he’d have no problem doing it and I’m moreÂ
than ready to see it go down. Here we go!Â
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