Wind Carved Names Into Silence by Zex Hollow 237

Chapter 237 

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She gives me the briefest of smiles before turning her head to the side and cing a gentle kiss on my thumb. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you worry. I guess I’ve just been processing everything that you’ve said. Whenever bad things have happened in the past I’ve not had anyone there for me aside from Lily of course but in my house, I was on my own so I guess that I’m still use to dealing with bad things happening on my own and that why I kind of shut down. I didn’t mean to. I feel her body tense up and I’m not sure if it’s from what happened or fear but my senses and Storm are both saying that it’s coming from a place of fear and I’m not having it. 

My thumb falls away from her face as she looks down at her lap as she anxiously plays with her hands. “Hey, hey, look at me, sweetheart. She doesn’t move so I try again only again nothing happens so instead, I hook my finger back under her chin and once again lift her face so she has no choice but to look at me. “Talk to me. What’s going on in that pretty head of yours right now. She remains quiet which only spikes my senses even more. She’s scared. 

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“Bonnie, baby. Why are you scared? If this was any other situation the look of shock on her face from my words would be funny but right now it’s anything but. “How do… how?” 

‘Our bond, sweetheart.” She lets out a small laugh as she rolls her eyes. “I always forget about that part of the bond.” I move my hands and begin running them slowly up and down her arms. It’s something that I’ve come to lear that helps calm her down when she’s feeling overwhelmed and right now is most definitely one of those moments. 

I feel relief as I feel her start to calm down but I need to know more. “Why were you feeling scared just now?” She keeps eye contact with me but doesn’t say a word. “Baby, I want to know why you were scared. I need to know. I can’t help you if I don’t know and I want to help you, I do.” 

She takes a deep breath as she slowly nods her head. “I… I just had a moment I guess. One of those moments where I get dragged back into the past and I got scared… I got scared that you would be angry because I blocked you out and wasn’t talking. I’m sorry, I am. I didn’t mean to do that. The more she talks the more I feel her panic and that is the last thing that I want. “Shh baby, it’s ok. I want you to listen to me. I won’t ever be mad at you for dealing with problems like you do. It’s something that is ingrained in you and that is not your fault. It’s all you know and that’s ok.” 

“And while I hope that one day you will be able to deal with it differently and not get dragged into your past if you can’t and that’s how you always deal with things then that’s ok. I’ll never be mad, baby, never.” 

‘I want to change it, I do. I hate that I still get dragged back there, to that house, to that room but sometimes I just can’t stop it.” I can see the anguish on her face and I hate it. “Then I will help you. Together we will try and find other ways for you to deal with things ok, baby.” She nods seeming relieved and I’m just thankful that I’m able to help her calm back down. 

‘Was that the only reason that you were scared?” I have a feeling that it wasnt but I don’t want to say anything in case I’m wrong or in case she thinks I’m mad about it. She hesitates for what feels like forever before finally answering me. “No… no it wasn’t. I… goddess I was worried that you were mad at me 

for not talking to you. I just…. 

Tears start to form in her eyes and I know exactly what she is thinking without her saying a word. She was worried that I would hurt her and as much as that makes me mad, I get it, I do. It’s all she knew and despite the fact that I haven’t laid a hand on her since she got here, I’m not surprised that the fact that I won’t ever hurt her still hasn’t quite sunk in for her yet. 

“Baby, you don’t need to say anymore but I want you to listen to me,” She looks straight into my eyes and I’m glad because I want her to know that I mean every word. “No matter what happens in life, no matter what situation wed ourselves in or whether it be that either you or 1 at mad at someone or even each other I promise you with all I have that I will never lay a hand on you any way. No matter how angry I am whether that be at you or someone 

else I will never physically take my anger out on you.” 

I watch her reaction to my words and I’m fairly happy. I can feel her body slyly relaxing and I can sense that she isn’t so panicky. logically I know that you won’t. But in my head…. in my head, it’s taking a little longer to sink in I’m sorry, Nick.” 

I lean forward and place a kiss on her forehead. “No apologies needed, sweetheart. Well get there, I promise. She nods her head right before I lean in and kiss her with all I have as the sudden need for her washes over me and consumes me. 

I spend the next several minutes showing my mate exactly how much I love er before we both take a bath and I get us dried and into bed. Of course, ! 

have no plans to sleep, not anytime soon anyway. Robbie linked me while we we in the bath to inform me that the doc is now secured in a cell so once my mate is sleeping I’ll be heading to the cells to have a little chat with our good old doc and put a stop to his shit once and for all.