Chapter 185
“It doesn’t matter what she’s been through, she’s our mate!” Cane grunts sounding pissed. Does that wolf not know me at all? “Of course, it doesn’t matter. While I hope that she hasn’t been through any bad, my hope isn’t for selfish reasons. I hope that she hasn’t been through any bed for her. But if she
has been through the hell we’ve heard about then it won’t make a bit of difference to me.
I’ll still be there for her. I’ll support her in whatever it is she needs or wants. If she’s pregnant and wants to keep the pup well, then that pup will be mine no question about it, and if she’s already had a pup and it’s been taken away from her well… I will burn the world down to find them if that’s what it
takes.
I know that we will figure things out and that we will find a way but fuck I just can’t stop the dark thoughts from being at the forefront of my mind. Aside from everything that I’ve thought the biggest thing for me is what if she doesn’t even want me? What if she is so traumatised by her past that she doesn’t want a mate especially one who’s potentially years older than her?
After linking Nick I find myself walking across the outdoor training field and heading to the building where we also train and I have my own office. An office that has a very new very large bottle of whisky that was gifted to me a while ago.
I don’t usually drink, two or three are usually my limited. I don’t like the idea of being drunk and unable to protect those around me if an attack arose. But tonight… yeah tonight getting so drunk that I can’t think about anything sounds way too appealing and it’s exactly what I do.
A pounding behind my eyes drags me from my sleep and I wish it hadn’t because the moment I come around I realise what I’ve done and how much I’m going to suffer today, along with everything else that I’m dealing with, it’s just a recipe for a disaster of a day.
I groan as I try to sit up before quickly changing my mind. Between the pounding in my head, stinging in my eyes and a stomach that feels ready to throw up at any second I’m afraid to move.
I feel like death and like an absolute bastard. I gave in to my own needs and wants and blanked everything out while my mate was in the packhouse without my protection. Deep inside I know that she is protected by the guards that we have inside the room with the women but my original plan was to stand guard outside the room through the night for my own peace of mind and Cains. While he may not be able to connect with her wolf yet, he still feels the connection to our mate like I do and he right now he just wants to know that she’s protected and so do I but I was a selfish asshole.
truth be told I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t slightly relieved that you did. I “Don’t be too hard on yourself, Robbie. I understand why you did it and was driving myself crazy with worry about the whole situation but when you blacked out so did I and a few hours of peace has helped me think of a new way forward.”
While I would like to think that he’s just saying this for my benefit I know that he’s not. He only ever says what he means and he’s always the first one to call me out on my bullshit so I know what he’s saying is the truth and I appreciate it more than he’ll ever realise.
know an my
“Good morning, brother.” I groan when my head snaps to the doorway where Nick is standing looking all bright–eyed and bushy nailed. “Fuck!” I grunt when another wave of sickness washes over me. I’ve been bitten, needed stitches from claws being ripped through my skin, and almost had my heart torn out and yet, none of those comes close to this feeling. Call me a pussy if you want but I fucking hate being sick, even more so the feeling you get right
before it all comes out.
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“How’s the head.” I don’t miss the grin on his face and I’d give anything to hit it right of him but I’m afraid to move. “Like I’ve been run over by a bus then it reverses and runs back over me, serval thousand times.”
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“That’s what happens with you bring out the whiskey and you can’t handle it. I know he’s not scolding me but I’m still annoyed probably more at myself than him but still, I’m going to blame him right now. Somehow I manage to move my hand and swiftly give him the middle finger causing him to laugh and make my head rattle.
“For the love of fuck please talk quieter. He laughs louder and now I want to punch him. ‘Get yourself up and showered. I’ve put clean clothes in the bathroom ready for you. Once you are done come out Bonnie is making breakfast and before you protest that you don’t want it trust me it will help you loads. You need to soak up the alcohol.” I know he’s right so I nod agreeing grateful for his support.
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“What’s Bonnie making? Dispute how I feel I can’t deny that I’m hungry. “Bacon, eggs, sausage, pancakes and she’s got a shit tone of coffee and fruit on
the go.
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“That woman is a goddess.” I praise as I try and convince myself to sit up. She is indeed. He agrees with nothing but pride on his face.
“Oh, and Robbie once you’ve eaten we are going to talk ok? His voice leaves no room for argument and honestly, I’m at a loss right now so any help ! can get will be much appreciated. I nod and he leaves without another word as try with all I have to get my ass out of bed. Fuck, today is going to be painful in more ways than one.
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