Wind Carved Names Into Silence by Zex Hollow 38

Chapter 38 

I have to admit the doctor is nothing but professional the whole time and does his best to make me feel as comfortable as possible. Try happy with bow you are doing, Bonnie but I do want to keep you here for a bit longer to monitor your and possibly run some tests As much as I want to twent right now ! know that I need some more time to rest so that I can get the strength that I’m going to need. Ok, doctor Thank you for taking care of me. He smiles and nods before heading towards the door. 

Doctor, amm… my wolf… I can’t talk to her. Do you know why that could be? He turns to face me and smiles not seeming worried which helps to settle me a little. ‘From what I can tell you were in a pretty bad way when Alpha Nicholas found you, and I think that you have been in pain for some time. I’m also aware that your wolf had taken control before you were brought in which leads me to believe that she knows that you are now in safe hands and she’s just resting up. I am sure that she will be back with you soon, just give her some time.” What he says makes sense, I just hope that he’s right and that she’ll be back soon because I miss her. 

“Thanks, doc. He smiles once more before leaving the room along with the other guy who came in after him, leaving me alone with my mate. I’m surprised that he didn’t question me about the bruises but I have a feeling that it has something to do with my Alpha mate, and I also have a feeling that he’s going to be the one trying to find out that information but I don’t understand why in fact, I don’t understand why he’s even here. 

“Why are you here?” The words leave my mouth before I realize that I’ve even said them but I don’t take them back. He stares at me for several seconds making me feel slightly nervous before he comes to sit in the chair right next to me. “I’m the Alpha of the pack.” Well, that’s a crap answer. “Exactly, so surely you have more important things to do than to be here with me.” It’s a fact, not a question, one that he doesn’t seem greatly pleased with. “You are my mate, and you’re hurt. Of course, I’m going to be here.” 

“Don’t do that.” I hate how weak my voice sounds but I can’t help it. “Don’t do what?” He seems generally confused but I can’t understand why. “Don’t pretend you’re here before I’m your mate. I know I am your mate but you do not want me, you plan on rejecting me so you being here as if you care doesn’t make sense. A growl slips past his lips but I have a feeling it’s more from his wolf rather than him. “You don’t know what I want!” Is he serious? 

“Maybe not, but I do know what you don’t want and that’s me, you’ve made it clear, but it’s ok, I understand that it can happen sometimes. I know that you have a woman in your life and if she makes you happy then I’m happy for you but please stop this. You still haven’t officially rejected me so this… you being here as if you care, it’s making it harder for me so please leave.” 

I didn’t plan on telling him to leave but now that I have said it I realize that it is what I want. He’s making things ten times harder by being here and that on top of not being able to talk to Lexi is too much for me. Within seconds I realize that I’m getting angry and as much as I hate feeling that way, it does make a nice chance to feel something else other than sadness. 

“What do you mean you know that I have women in my life? Who said anything about that?” Out of all of the things I said that’s all that stood out to him. “It doesn’t matter, please just leave me alone. I’m tired and I want to sleep.” I’m being bitchy but for once, I don’t care. I’m not even tired I just want to be left alone. “I want to talk… we need to talk starting with how you got those bruises.” 

“No, no we don’t. Please just leave me alone!” My voice is getting louder and finally, he seems to be taking me seriously. “Fine, I’ll let you sleep but I’ll be back in one hour and we’re going to talk.” I honestly didn’t think he would leave so I’ll take an hour at least it gives me some time to figure things out and maybe even get out of here. I know I said that I need more time to heal but maybe getting out of here is for the best. Maybe I can find somewhere to 

rest for a while. 

“Of course, I didn’t get any sleep nor did he last an hour. He was back in my room within 30 minutes and once he knew that I was still awake there was no getting rid of him. I know we have to talk mainly because we need to get the rejection out of the way but all the strength that I felt earlier when I told him to leave has gone and now I just feel deflated. 

“Are you ready to talk now, Bonnie?” Nope, not at all but here goes nothing I guess.