Wind Carved Names Into Silence by Zex Hollow 43

Chapter 43 

Bonnie 

I don’t understand. He’s just thrown a major curve ball at me and I have so many things I want to say but at the same time, I feel speechless. -1 thought you… you didn’t want me as your mate? He runs his hand through his hair before letting out a long sigh. It was never that I didn’t want your as toy mate. It was never personal to you, I just didn’t want a mate full stop. Well, I wouldn’t allow myself th. It’s all to complicated. ile lets got a huff of fustration seeming to match the frustration that I feel inside of me. 

“It’s complicated how? I don’t understand?” He has to explain this because there’s no way I can figure it out alone. ‘Do you remember how I said that Lottie’s arrival was not your usual story?” I nod. “Well, her arrival and my whole complicated mate situation is kind of an all–in–one thing. 

I understand what he’s trying to say… I think, “I know you want to know the story and I will tell you but to tell you about that…. Well, not many people know about it, only the ones that were involved and my close family, and what I will tell you is something that I prefer to keep on the down low so when I tell you, it’s going to be with me hoping that I can trust you to keep it to yourself.” 

Goddess this story of his, whatever it is that he has lived through must be intense, and I’m kind of nervous actually to find out what it is now. ‘111 be putting a lot of trust in you, Bonnie. The kind of trust that I haven’t put into many people and while I know it’s my choice to do that, I was hoping that maybe before I tell you, you would put some of your trust in me first.” 

“What do you mean? How would I do that?” He shifts looking uncomfortable and I swear I see his jaw clench. “You could start by telling me where you got those bruises from and not just the fresh ones but the older ones that are still healing?” I’m not sure what I was expecting him to say but the thought of telling him everything terrifies me. 

Once I tell him the truth he’s going to know how weak and pathetic I am. Then again, he’s seeing me pretty weak now and until a few minutes ago he didn’t even want me so what does it matter? Why am I worrying about the opinion of a man who will more than likely not want me again once he knows all 

of me? 

“So I have to tell you about my secret so that you can tell me about yours?” My tone is clipped and while I don’t mean to sound so blunt, I can’t help it. “No, not at all. Hell, if I’m being honest, I’m going to tell you regardless of whether you tell me or not, but it’s killing both my wolf and me not knowing how you got hurt and I just wonder if knowing will help to calm us down. 

You don’t have to tell me anything, I’ll still tell you my story and while I hope that you will keep it to yourself I already know that there’s a chance that you will tell the world and that’s something that I’m just going to have to deal with.” 

He’s got a fair point. While I don’t know the contents of his story yet, it’s clear that it is something big and extremely hard for him to talk about and he doesn’t know me at all so for all he knows I could go and tell the whole world his secret but luckily for him, I wouldn’t ever do that, regardless of the outcome of our relationship, mated or rejected, whatever he tells me will stay solely with me unless he says otherwise. I give him a nod as I sit up a little more then sip my water. He probably knows that I’m just trying to buy myself a few more seconds before spilling my secret but he doesn’t try to rush me, just sits still watching me and waiting for me to start talking. Here we go I suppose. 

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