Wind Carved Names Into Silence by Zex Hollow 70

Chapter 70 

Alpha Nicholas 

“Telling Bonnie that final part of what happened has left me feeling so many different things and above all else completely drained. I feel like I could sleep for a month but on the other hand, I also feel relieved that she knows but more than anything I feel pure terrifying fear. Once I knew I wanted her with every fiber of my beating I was afraid that she would leave after all I had put her through but now. 

Well, now I’m fucking terrified that she will, and while there’s a part of me that still wants her to so that I know she will live and can have the chance of being happy there’s another part of me that never wants to let her go regardless of what could be. And while it sounds awful I’m only thinking that way because it’s been a few days since we met and yet she’s still alive so maybe we have a chance… Just 

maybe. 

I’ll pulled out of my wondering mind as my mate wiggles on my lap. She seems concerned but nothing like I thought she would be. I imagined she would be terrified, expected it even but once again she is surprising me with how she’s handling this whole shit show. I’m not sure how Many times she has done that in the short time that I have known her but I can bet that it’s something that she will always do and I’m more than happy to be around for it. 

“When you said that you didn’t want a mate, was that part of the reason?” For some reason I don’t expect her question which in reality is stupid, of course, her mind has wandered back to that and I’m going to be nothing but honest with her from here on out. 

“It was the biggest part of it. To see Tony find his soul mate just to have her ripped away from him in less than a day was one of the worst things that I have ever witnessed so trying to even imagine that happening to me completely threw me and so I decided that if I didn’t have my mate, didn’t except her then she couldn’t get hurt. 

Of course, Storm was all for trying even if he didn’t want to lose his mate, he still wasn’t ready to give up on the idea. Everyone around me assumed it was just me being a miserable bastard but that wasn’t the case. I was scared, really fucking scared and if keeping my mate safe meant living with a reputation of being a complete asshole then I was ok with that.” 

“Was there any other reason why you didn’t want a mate?” This girl is smart and is good at sensing stuff and it’s quite terrifying. “There was. Another reason was the fear of what would happen to Storm and me if we rejected our mate. We all know the stories of how some wolves can’t get over not having their mate even if they have rejected them and go insane or kill themselves and I couldn’t do that to Lottie, I couldn’t do it to any of my family but especially Lottie, even more so after what her mom had done to her.” 

“And Lottie was also another reason for it right?” 

“How do you do that?” I smile at the look on her face. She appears to look confused by my question but her eyes show mischief, It’s not something I’ve seen from her before, but I already know that I want to see it more and often. “Know what I’m thinking or what I’m 

about to say.” 

She shrugs her shoulder but I don’t miss the glimpse of sadness that flickers in her eyes. Yeah… I fucking hate that sight, bring back her mischievous eyes any day. “Growing up like I did you learn a thing or do. Anyway, don’t try and distract me. Come on, tell me your other reason that involves Lottie” It’s a demand, not a question and it’s hot as fuck! 

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“Within a few years of Lottle attiving here, she started asking questions about my mate. Why I didn’t have one? Was I excitand fry freet her? And she often asked me if my mate would be her mommy because she had never had one and that broke my heart and developed new tear in me of not just me losing my mate but also Lottie too. 

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